Welcome 2016.... Bottom Line......

Happy New year everyone, Again it has been some time since I have written and I apologize as a lot has been going on so I will attempt to give you a short summary and then fill you in on what is coming. I am going to try to do at least a monthly update as I believe this is going to be a big year for me so feel free to ask me about it when I slack off! Your accountability helps and motivates me, so don’t hold back. O.K. so the last few months I have learned a couple things about myself…….

The main thing is that when deprived of sleep on a consistent basis due to pain I become cranky. When I am cranky it makes it more challenging to be positive. I do not like being cranky, nor do I like being sleep deprived or in constant pain. I am pretty sure the last couple months I have failed miserably at hiding my crankiness, unlike in the past when my lack of sleep and pain is more sporadic. Perhaps now would be a good time to apologize to anyone I may have offended or even annoyed with my crankiness. I am sorry and sincerely hope no one has personalized my behavior, it is not you I promise, it is all me….. It is lack of sleep and pain and frustration, so please forgive me and also feel free to call me out if you see said crankiness showing. I do not like this about myself, while I understand it and have a new understanding and sympathy for those living with constant pain, I still do not like how I let it affect me.

Just know I am working on it. After all I am alive and able to feel pain, that is a blessing. I am able to care for myself and work , and that is a blessing. I have awesome family and friends who put up with me and love me despite my crankiness and that too is a huge blessing. I am Blessed! Another thing that has been reconfirmed for me is my love for working out and how much it impacts my overall state of being. I have not been able to work out due to the hip pain, I tried and tired but it just was not going to happen so I have had to stop working out and it has been so hard. For me Aqua aerobics is therapeutic. Not only do I feel better physically when I am exercising on a regular basis, but I also realized it is a debriefing or releasing time for me of all the negativity that I deal with on a daily basis at work and just in life in general. It is as if when I enter the water and work out when I leave all the woes , worries, and stresses behind in the water. I knew I enjoyed working out but I realize it is a part of who I am and I need it, so not being able to do it has also impacted my crankiness! I look forward to getting back into the water ASAP. Which leads me to the upcoming year…….

So as many of you know and I mentioned in previous entries, I have a couple surgeries coming up. I am hoping to get the first done as soon as possible. I have only a couple more steps to complete before I can schedule it and one will be done this week. This first one is the weight loss surgery so that I can more quickly get more weight off so I can do the hip surgery. I have one more appointment this week then I have to raise $2500 for their lifetime program membership. It is a great program, and I believe in what they are doing however I can not schedule my surgery until that $2500 is paid and that will take time to get together. I am working on ideas and crossing my fingers for a big tax return. That being said if anyone has any ideas let me know, I am open and considering everything from yard sales to recycling! LOL Once I have that money I can get on the surgeons schedule. I will let you know as time goes on how things progress. After that I will be looking at the hip surgery, but I will tell you more about that as it gets closer. Getting these done gives me HOPE. I am making HOPE one of my words for the year. I believe in Hope. It keeps us going. I look forward to hiking, and bike riding and many adventures that at this point are out of reach for me but not out of reach forever! I also like the word Hope as I recently saw a image that said HOPE, Hang On Pain Ends

So …. Now you are all caught up and have a peek at what is coming. Please feel free to ask me questions and leave feedback, it truly encourages me to keep sharing. Thanks everyone….. With great love and appreciation know I am BLESSED and in part because of you!