So………… Frustration is probably my least favorite feeling. Needless to say I have been feeling it a lot lately, this doesn’t make me happy! I knew going into this process that I would have highs and lows, but I guess you can never anticipate how you might handle them. The hope is always that you will get through it with as little pain as possible but that doesn’t always happen.
So I am in my second month with virtually no progress, I am very frustrated! I guess I have been a little spoiled with 6+ months of consistent weight loss; I have come to expect it. So in my head, logically, I know this is all a part of the process but it is still very frustrating. It is the part of the journey that I can not anticipate its arrival but I dread it all the same…… It makes me crazy!
So I’m feeling a lot of frustration but then as if the angels are looking out for me (Thank goodness) I run across something that reminds me how far I have come. Did some “spring cleaning” recently and ran across some old clothes. Clothes I was unable to wear because they were too tight for me to wear comfortably, and so I tried them on now and …… Well needless to say I can not only wear them but they are so big I really can only wear a couple of the shirts as “nightshirts” or dresses if I dare! HAHAHAHAHA
Then while cleaning another area in the house I came across some old pictures. There was a few of me with my niece Gabby when she was 2 or 3 years old, so that would be approximately 7 years ago, and all I can say is WOW! It is crazy…. I have been able to show a couple people and everyone says the same thing… “That is a different person” & “That does not even look like you”. (I will try to figure out how to scan them so I can post them) Anyway… It has been approximately 8/9 months that I have been working with the Doctor but I have been making life changes and working on this weight thing on my own, to the best of my ability, for over 5 years. So when I see these old pictures it reminds me how far I have come over the past several years and not just the past several months. I have literally lost a person already and have another to go….. So while I have been feeling frustrated about the past two months…. Thank goodness for the reminder of the long term growth and accomplishments.
This journey is hard, but I am grateful that there are reminders of the alternative…. Which at this point really is not an option for me….. I am a changed person and will never be the same again.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Frustration :-(
So………… Frustration is probably my least favorite feeling. Needless to say I have been feeling it a lot lately, this doesn’t make me happy! I knew going into this process that I would have highs and lows, but I guess you can never anticipate how you might handle them. The hope is always that you will get through it with as little pain as possible but that doesn’t always happen.
So I am in my second month with virtually no progress, I am very frustrated! I guess I have been a little spoiled with 6+ months of consistent weight loss; I have come to expect it. So in my head, logically, I know this is all a part of the process but it is still very frustrating. It is the part of the journey that I can not anticipate its arrival but I dread it all the same…… It makes me crazy!
So I’m feeling a lot of frustration but then as if the angels are looking out for me (Thank goodness) I run across something that reminds me how far I have come. Did some “spring cleaning” recently and ran across some old clothes. Clothes I was unable to wear because they were too tight for me to wear comfortably, and so I tried them on now and …… Well needless to say I can not only wear them but they are so big I really can only wear a couple of the shirts as “nightshirts” or dresses if I dare! HAHAHAHAHA
Then while cleaning another area in the house I came across some old pictures. There was a few of me with my niece Gabby when she was 2 or 3 years old, so that would be approximately 7 years ago, and all I can say is WOW! It is crazy…. I have been able to show a couple people and everyone says the same thing… “That is a different person” & “That does not even look like you”. (I will try to figure out how to scan them so I can post them) Anyway… It has been approximately 8/9 months that I have been working with the Doctor but I have been making life changes and working on this weight thing on my own, to the best of my ability, for over 5 years. So when I see these old pictures it reminds me how far I have come over the past several years and not just the past several months. I have literally lost a person already and have another to go….. So while I have been feeling frustrated about the past two months…. Thank goodness for the reminder of the long term growth and accomplishments.
This journey is hard, but I am grateful that there are reminders of the alternative…. Which at this point really is not an option for me….. I am a changed person and will never be the same again.
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What was your heaviest weight?
ReplyDeleteYou are doing amazing things for your body, your health and your self condfidence, don't get down! And the lack of weight loss just means you need to change up the workout a little, do something differnt, add something, push a tiny bit harder. Your body and your brain get comfortable, time to shake em up! YOU GO LADY!! (Throw some green tea tablets into your diet, that helps too)
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you, it is a great commitment that you are taking on so don't think that you're all alone!!
ReplyDeleteFor months now I've been seeing your occassional Facebook note to check out your blog, but life is crazy you know, so I tucked the intent away in my things-to-do-when-I-have-an-unfrenzied-moment section of my brain and anticipated what you might have to say. I will admit that your regular denial of being endowed with any writing talent at all had me a bit worried, but I tried not to get too wrapped up in my grammar matron mode and hoped the process of putting your thoughts down and sharing them was helping in your overall journey. Imagine then how surprised I was after all that build up (build down?) to finally get a chance to take a peek and find that you are a great writer. It's been totally enjoyable to read about your progress and your excitement and your changing view of yourself both physically and mentally. Way to go! Can't wait for more.
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ReplyDeleteYour Blog is Fantastic, you are so inspirational and truly a special person to share this incredibly hard journey with all of us, keep up the great work, there are only great things and special times ahead.