Support

HI! Sorry first of all for the big gap in time between entries. Let me start by saying please be patient with me as I am not a writer so I may jump around a bit.... That being said I have been thinking about "Support" so many levels to this I want to cover.... I will try to have some sense of order to this.... Well when I first started this new way of thinking and looking at myself one of the things I immediately thought when I saw "the picture", which threw me into this journey, was "Why hasn't anyone said something to me?". I had to really give this some thought since I was trying to look at why and how I got where I was. Something I realized was I had subconsciously made it clear to those around me that I was "fine" and I was "comfortable" with who I was. While this was true to some degree I obviously had put up some invisible walls which told my friends "Don't go there, I am fine". I had always made little jokes about my size and really did not let it stop my life so I am sure to those around me it seemed I was aware and making my choice. I completely own this fact that I did not make it easy for anyone to question me and my health or discuss my weight , however in retrospect I wish I had not done that and I wish someone would have slapped me.

Phase 4

O.K. So off to the gym we go......... So in the beginning we went a couple times a week, we tried different days so we could try all the different instructors. It was interesting how different the classes were depending on who was teaching. I mean the basic moves are the same but as far as energy, music and overall intensity of the workout really varied from instructor to instructor. There also was a very obvious "culture" within these classes among the people in the class. So we went a couple times a week trying to figure out the moves, trying to figure out where and how we fit into this group.